THE FOREST AT THE EDGE OF THE WORLD
The sidewalks of New York! Today I left groceries
by the playground on Hudson and tried to haul,
up toward my block, a cross section of a maple
grown too large, chainsawed into manhole covers.
Alphonso, Super for All Buildings east of the projects,
stopped sweeping. He leaned his bald broom
against the stoop, nudged the wood with his toe.
"Nothing to do but roll it," he said, hands
deep in his pockets like a farmer. I nodded,
barely believing this true soul in the midst of asphalt,
transistor radios and the wet smell of dogs,
as he squatted eye level with the log, heaved it
against his shoulder like a man who bears
a handmade cross for miles on his penitent back.
I saw a kind of glory in his eyes, he understood
the heft of the trunk, nicks in the damp bark,
so I stood on the side and righted the thing
and together we rolled this boulder of tree
past the Indian deli, the Russian shoe repair,
the Caribbean bakery. "You can smell the forest,"
he said, as we reached my stoop, wood
in the crook of his neck, sawdust and humus and sweat.
And we hoisted the thing, one step at a time, stopping
only to breathe the scent of sap and after a good half hour
it was filling the whole of my apartment
the shade, the damp smell, that enormous presence
the light brown rings, so perfect my whole life
fell right down inside them, concentric circles,
tree within tree, the single slab a world within itself,
and suddenly it was 35 years ago:
I stood on the edge of a forest, someplace upstate,
and looked up into the branches of my first
true and majestic tree, in the first real foresttrees
instead of buildings. Oh the breadth of those limbs
after the taut geometry of elevator, fire escape, lobby,
to see through branches to the sunI believed
the world was mine, there was sap in my own veins,
the tree was limitless, the scent of the tree,
the bark and the branch and the six-year-old sightline,
which goes on to the edge of the known world.
Rynn Williams poems have appeared
in The Nation, Field, The Massachusetts Review, Puerto del Sol, The
North American Review, and Prairie Schooner, among others.
She has received a fellowship from the New York Foundation for the Arts
and a scholarship from Bread Loaf Writers Conference. She lives